AUGH

(Okay, yes, I know, it's almost February. I promise I'll write about winter break when I have the proper amount of time and the right mindset. Sorry.)

I fucking hate this.

I'm fucking tired of being angry.

I'm tired of stupid little shit pissing me off.

Why can't I just let shit go?

I've tried breathing exercises, counting to ten, all that shit. It doesn't work.

Why?

Why am I so goddamn angry all the goddamn time?

I'm tired of being filled with rage.

I enjoy schadenfreude way too much.

I'm harsh and snarky and cynical and sarcastic and pessimistic.

When I'm not angry, I'm sad or just... numb. Very rarely am I content (like when I'm having a good time with my friends or Ryo sends me a sweet message), and even rarer are my moments of actual happiness.

I'm sure my friends are sick of my shittastic attitude as well.

FUCK.